We got a beautiful story submitted to us from Rheanna of Rehanna Lynn Photography. It always hits me when I hear from a new mama about PPD. The struggle is real. And no matter how many people say how common it is, you still feel very alone in the throws of it. Coming out on the other side is like having all the clouds lifted to finally see the sun. You know it was there all along, but the fogginess makes it seem impossible. Let's me introduce you.
From Rheanna, rockstar photographer.
Proud parents Llyn and Jeff welcomed their precious baby boy on February, 20th, weighing in at 8 lbs. 15 oz. & 21 in. They wanted to document his arrival and their experience as first time parents with a lifestyle newborn session, and invited me to be the special one to tell their newest chapter! I was greeted with the warmest welcome and very proud daddy, Jeff. He was so over the moon proud of his son and madly in love. Momma finished nursing as we brought some equipment and gear in and I took a few captures of that special bonding moment between momma and babe. In between time with mom and dad, we captured some not-so-posed and ‘real’ family moments. I have to say, Rivers is just the sweetest little thing and loves snuggles....
Llyn, thank you for sharing your family with us! Fill us in on your experiences as a mama!
As a first time mama and a mama who suffered from the baby blues, the most surprising thing about bringing my newborn son home for the first time was the lack of excitement and attachment to my son. I felt like I was just an exhausted, beat up non-oiled machine: change diaper, feed, sleep, repeat. All to keep the strange tiny human alive. Not to mention the fact that I had just birthed a 9 pound (okay actually 8lbs 15oz but I’m giving myself that extra ounce!) baby, making me feel like I just got run over by a semi. A trip to the bathroom was one interminable ordeal: change diaper, rinse, tuck it all back in the fancy mesh panties, and repeat in a very short time because the muscle control just isn’t the same to be able to hold your bladder like you use to.
Seriously. I wish more women were honest about feeling this way. I was totally there with you in the same mesh undies. There is so much pressure that we put on ourselves to be perfect!
Looking back, it seems totally reasonable that I wasn’t bouncing off the walls with joy those first couple weeks home, but I remember scrolling through social media and seeing other new mamas posting pictures with captions such as, “being a mom is the best thing ever! I can’t imagine doing anything else!” etc, etc. This made me feel like a failure as a mom because I did not feel that same love and excitement for my son. Yes, I loved him but I was so overwhelmed with all of these new changes and emotions (hormones!!) that the joy just wasn’t there for me....yet.
Now, during this time there is one person that I did feel an overwhelming amount of love for, and that was my husband. My husband was my rock. He not only took care of the tiny human but he also took care of me. I honestly don’t think I would have made it through without him. I couldn’t believe how much he loved our son and I adored watching him become the most perfect father. I loved his love the most and felt like the luckiest woman in the world to call him my husband.
It wasn’t until my son was about 3-4 weeks old that those darn baby blues passed and I felt like a real mama, filled with the joy I had been longing for and seeing my son for the gift he truly is. I am so blessed with the most perfect baby boy, Rivers, and honestly can’t imagine my life any other way.
Sounds like you got a good one. Me too. My hubby's a keeper! We don't often publish dad's perspective. Not that it's unimportant. MNAC is to celebrate mamas, because there is way too much judgement and "mom-shaming" in our culture. But I would love to hear Jeff's perspective, especially since you were so authentic in sharing with us!
Hey Jeff, fill us in on being dad!
Llyn loves being a loving Mom and taking Rivers on walks around the neighborhood, as well as rocking out to some tunes as a family as I try to gently influence Rivers’ musical taste.
I love being a Dad and can’t wait to teach my son the important things in life like the lyrics to Yellow Ledbetter, how to pick the right donut, being yourself, being chivalrous, fishing upstream, downstream and everywhere in between.
As new parents we love all the little moments we get to experience with our son together. Squeezing his chubby cheeks often results in a smile where he gets to show off the dimple on the right side of his face. The list of things we’re learning grows by the day, and includes everything from learning to point “it” down when changing his diaper, to things as simple as how to remove the poop stains from his clothes after a blowout.
The joy Rivers’ has already brought into our lives is indescribable. As the first Grandchild for all 4 grandparents we’re attempting to keep him from being spoiled, but know that’s nearly an impossible task, as he’s very fortunate to have so many friends and family that love him! Each day together brings us more joy and we look forward to the journey of raising our little Tiger up to be a great young man.
So sweet! Thank you again , Llyn and Jeff for sharing River with us!
Photos: Rheanna Lynn Photography
Stevens Point, WI